Tag: family

When Your Abuser Dies

Last year, I had to – for the most part – start overwriting The House of Jezebel: Fulfilling Destiny in Spite of Your Upbringing. For nearly two decades, my previous writings were based on my Christian upbringing. But as I soon got serious about discerning the paranormal events that I experienced as a child, I underwent a spiritual awakening. I suddenly woke up to the realization that the religious beliefs of my childhood no longer appealed to me. Actually, I speak more on this topic in a blog post entitled Why I Quit Church? ⛪ Nevertheless, diverting from traditional Christianity onto the path of Self-realization meant I’d needed to start over –…

The Backwardness of a Jezebel

Last week, Spirit reminded me of a common occurrence amongst the Jezebels I’ve encountered (in this lifetime). It seems that these Charismatic (Jezebel) types have their own set of misplaced priorities that they live by – even if they fail to see how such priorities – when carried out – tend to result in hurt, confusion, and/or chaos for those around them. In other words, their priorities are centered around doing for everyone else except for the people that are actually in their corner. This doesn’t mean that they always ignore those closest to them but their approach in doing so usually turns out a little a$$ backwards. Instead of asking…

WANTED: A Compassionate Jezebel?

Since I started reading Gary Zukav’s The Seat of the Soul, I’ve been trying to see into the soul of my Jezebel in search of a compassionate side. To see the purpose of the timeline collision of our lives from a different perspective. Perhaps in doing so, I could try to find the why not only in my story but in our stories. At first, in the hours, days, and weeks after her death, I engaged in emotional warfare since nothing but hurtful and harmful memories surfaced from deep within my soul. Nevertheless, here I am – a good three months later, in search of something good, something purposeful in her existence? Yet I still…

Writing & The Death of a Jezebel

Wow! Can you believe it’s been a whole year since I released the first three episodes of The House of Jezebel book podcast?!? Well, I’m back – and a lot has happened since then. But before, I started up a new podcast series entitled Jezebel Through the Chakras, a look at the 7 major chakras, I wanted to check in and give you all an update on the writing process and what’s happened in the past year. This recapped episode was sparked by a recent obituary by a sister and brother who wanted to have the last word regarding their 80-year-old mother that abandoned them and started a whole other family…

Goodbye & Farewell, My Jezebel

As is being currently documented in my forthcoming book, The House of Jezebel, despite what my Jezebel did during my upbringing and even throughout her “alleged” mannerisms in the months leading up to (and since) her death, I still remain neutral (in my feelings) toward her. I have neither the time or energy to be angry, resentful, or remorseful over her. Don’t get me wrong! I’ve long since forgiven her but even forgiveness does not require one to return to the source of their suffering for the abuse to resume. Therefore, her death not only sealed the deal on my ability to release her spirit and its influence on me and my…

The Resurrection of Nate (Part II)

My grandfather was born on May 30, 1933 under the sun sign of Gemini ( ♊ ) and the moon sign of Leo ( ♌ ). The ominous of that day lies not so much in his sun and moon signs but in the fact that his birth fell during the Saturn Retrograde. With Saturn in Aquarius situated between his 12th and 1st (12 / 1) astrological houses plus Pisces in his 1st house. also serving as his North Node. All of this spells TROUBLE!!! Add to this, the day he passed away – January 7, 1964, there were three planets in retrograde: Mercury, Uranus, and Pluto combined with his Sun,…

The Resurrection of Nate (Part I)

On October 7th, the National Weather Service declared Hurricane Nate as the fastest-forward moving hurricane in the Gulf of Mexico. Just five days earlier, it was a tropical depression, but within two days it had become a tropical storm. Then two days after that, a Category 1 Hurricane making its first (or two) landfalls at the mouth of the Mississippi River around midnight on October 8th, followed by a second landfall near Biloxi (Miss.) later that same day (evening). 💨🌨 On a personal note: It was only after Nate had reached hurricane status that I took notice of its actual name. Spiritually speaking, my spiritual team (ancestors) were utilizing this “Perfect…

Death in My Mom’s “Horoscope”

She had to die so you could live. – God Its been nearly 15 years since I heard those words dropped into my being and they still bring me chills. For the past several weeks, I’ve felt compelled to gather the natal (birth) charts for key family members that will be covered in The House of Jezebel regardless if they’re living or deceased. Well today, I began that search and I’m alarmed at the “coincidences” found in my mom’s chart. She was born on February 8, 1957 under the sun sign of Aquarius () and the moon sign of Cancer. Her turning point event happened around the age of 7 when…